Vanity song

how much you
wish to hold me
scold me
for being me

life isn’t fair
I’ve got the flair
blame on destiny
luck, coincidence, fate
or anything you hate

how much you
wish, truly wish
to hold me
scold me
for being me

I am not vain
or insane
basking in glory
ever and ever again
repeating my story

how much
tell me how much
you wish to hold me
push me down
scold me
for being gorgeous
fabulous me

I am dancing to
world melodies
laughing on my own
romancing with
billionaire tragedies

tell me how
muchness much
you really wish
I didn’t exist
wish to hold me
and then ruthlessly
scold me, for being
only, better lonely
laughing,
wryly smiling,
me!!

Flicker of hope in a maddening crowd

Standing aside
gold, sapphires, rubies
from all the glitter
colours unending tides
entire spectrum

jugglers, jokers, jesters
finest spectacles
coins, kingdom, castles
wealth tentacles

longing, for us
losing, myself
choosing, you

And why?
you innocently ask
with unreserved smile
in your angel mask

because my dearest
nothing else
makes the
heartbeat

Scent lasting centuries

love transcends words
let you fly together
beyond body, soul
eyes glare, heart’s flare

just sweet smell
of a deep red rose
subtlety of pink leaves
air weaves, dancing to the hymn

of affection, soul satisfaction
death captures so soon,
before noon of love,
story does not end

after billion bends
universe turns
mind wakes up again,
consciousness regain

feeling what was
left behind, other half
of soul, now mind has one goal
salvation is in embrace

And then you see her
long white robe with grace
her hair hold a deep red rose
from a long gone era

of centuries past, of memories lost
given by a destitute
which constituted
best gift forever

Cosmic colours

Rose petals blush
daffodils bloom
lilies loom
kissing, caressing
those fingers
affection lingers
for eons in surreal
beautiful moments
women are goddesses
shapeshifting odysseys
universe will be empty
humanity nonexistence
futile all resistance
when she smiles
closes her eyes
moves her hair
shows her flair
just bow and kiss
those lips from heaven

Smiles

what a smile tell us
is it real
or mere fake
over the moon
deep inside a lake

a distraction
for sanity sake
wishing the world
on a birthday cake

greed and gold
pure satisfaction
young or old
out of affection

soft lines on cheeks
pleasure leaks
demanding attention
lust seeks

innocent eyes
never tell lies
true happiness
reveals and shies

a moment long
forever present
full moon flare
admiring crescent

years pass
memories fade
will never forget
that smile you had

Fake crossroads, imaginary bridges

I lost again
In the wilderness
of affection
no satisfaction

for this soul
Was it love
lust, trust
or just a game

Unable to discern
impaired vision
sense of touch,
all feel the same

Is it I, her, they
to blame
negligent judgement
all look the same

The way found
is not sound
a mere mirage
fake visage

Broken promises
and I,
bound till eternity
I know not why?

Smell still sweet?

in the mud
with a thud
lots of blood,
spilled, milled

out of life
still, I smiled
and smiled again
self professing

confessing
you can not
put me down
one of a kind

rare to find
and even in
blood burnt meat
I smell sweet