that bench

we were together, forever
sat for hours, morning, noon and night
all was good, it was brilliant, bright
time passed so quickly, rather briskly.
sudden departure after fifty short years
clock stopped, still river of sadness, airborne tears
some frozen in my eyes, unable to blink
can not move any limbs, didn’t want to think
all I want is you and me and we be
sitting together, hand in hand to see sunset
or on a cloudy day, let night set
in motion, inkling of another beautiful day
and I miss you, could you find a bench
at the edge of paradise, I will find it
as long, with your sweet smell it drench
though I am not worthy, except belonging to you
which has kept me true, will let me through
rather quietly, into grand, adorned gates of heaven
leftover years of life, perhaps five, six or seven
of treacherous wait, will end soon
when on heaven’s moon, I see you smiling

Prison

Without you,
Heaven is a prison
I want to run away
guardian angel insists
on my stay
I wish there was a way
to abandon this
You I miss
oh so dearly

Gates

Fires breathing dragons
welcome my presence
I am declared
the lord of broken souls
hearts I crushed
are heavens bound
Were, are or will be
Devil came himself
to grant me my throne
This beast will
live all alone
Hell is very welcoming

Deliverance

Disguised as a flower
Gabriel spoke to me
Giving hope of
redemption
Showing uncharted territory

Where the heaven
meets the horizon
Trees in the forest
sing in unison
songs of praise
for the nature above

My deeds are weak
My words are hollow
Still the hope
allows me to speak

I go back to my forefathers
honour intact,
head held high
Being true to
my creed

For roaming the earth
Sowing the seeds
of happiness, courage,
contentment,
for a better world, indeed

AB 3 January, 2014
Photos AB Dec 2013

Cure

In a dream, I saw
Garden of Eden
rivers of milk, flowers of heaven
tree of life
Soul still
Just unsatisfied
missed your presence
you who I sought
for whom I fought
battles of will
essence
piety
society
woke up all bare
sweat running through my hair
a beat then revealed
open secret of billion years
Heart is your home
Most of us wandering
True explorers are some
Don’t want garden
Don’t need heaven
Just let your presence felt
in dark blackened heart
Cure the incurable

Ashes

Dust and ashes
Reminds the end
beginnings, pretend
heaven send
Or was it hell
Time will tell
What is to there to sell
soul sold
heart under hammer
Can’t speak a word
Stammer stammer
Amend your words
Correct grammar
it won’t change the script
Decrypt the message
Open the passage
Time to go
End the lust
of eternal life
Going is must
Ashes and dust
Where is the coffin
Lay it to rest
Ashes and dust
and gust, takes it away
to deep dark
unknown valleys
spread last remains
of bones and flesh
comprehend
powerless being

Sight and sound of a cemetery

Are they
resting in peace
Or crying for help
down and deep

souls in heaven
rot of bones
getting rewards
buried in stones

Suffering
Hell and fire
rivers of milk
dames of desire

Repent repent
Emptiness
Feel guilty
Just nonsense

Enjoy till you die
Or refrain
Conflicting thoughts
Can’t abstain

One reality
Clear and sound
Death around
Death abound

AB 19 December, 2013
Photography: AB August 2013

Pipework to heaven

scaling inch by inch
slowly, gradually, moving
since I reached the nadir
the only way is up
these helping angel hands
extending beyond their reach
Lord could impeach
them for my mortal sins
kindness sometimes comes
from least unexpected places
soft, smiling, gentle faces
and I am deeply thankful

Wish you were here

In memory of a loved one
the day you left
whole town wept
last rites don’t apply
as angels just fly
patience, care
Love immense
life after you
made no sense
who will now
calm me down
let me wear
that intellect crown
time has passed
since I have seen
that smile
that laugh
most beautiful heart
ever been
years pass
images degrade
those memories
however
never fade
heaven will have
a great party tonight
as soul of the world
celebrate in style
we on earth are
missing you
on your birthday
kissing you
in milk honey streams
in mad laughter screams
in every moment dreams

Endless possibilities

we will live and leave
something in the air,
perhaps our flair,
to live life beyond
what is conspired
against us,
thus, no despair,
just hope,
and a beautiful,
destination rope,
awaits to take us
to heaven and beyond
hop a ride
with you on my side
all is possible