beyond grief, beyond belief

I wrote this to mourn deaths of dozens of innocent children killed in a inhumane attack on a school in Peshawar in December 2014

news reel lost its time
repeating, reminding, binding
us in this tragedy together

they were light in a dark night
they were day, gold in clay
all they wanted was to play

enjoy life, make smiles language of universe
who gave you the right to end their dream
who gave you the right to bend the fabric

and do the sin which even Satan disowns
he hates that we call you evil, as you are far above it
do you breath, is it blood in your food

human fingers in your soup,
when you sleep do you sleep on
skulls of mothers and their unborn children

do you live, is it life what you call
recall every moment when you were young
were you young or abomination appeared randomly

what is consciousness to you
yes mastermind, deathly blind,
merciless monster, why would you kill

and fill, thousand cauldron with sweet children’s blood
thud, thud, thud, thud, that’s sound when each one of
our lights to this universe were broken and bled

bullets you had, they are asking for our forgiveness
but you, I don’t wish you death, I don’t wish you life
I wish that you are presented, to each child’s parent

who look you in the eye, asking which piece of you they take
in memory of their child, and bit by bit we take you apart
examine your brain while you are alive,

torture yes we should torture you just before death
then let you eat your excrement, let you drink your urine
never let you die, each day we play smiling blossoming voices

of our loved ones in front of you and say to you
While you can not see as we took your eyes
while your can not say as we cut your tongue,

but we let your ears alone, hear the laughter you muted
hundreds of lives you refuted, what say you,
just shake your head, denying our dead

the life they could had, and we cry, sky, Earth
Galaxy, stars, God, Satan, Angels, Devils,
Humans, animals, insects, creatures

cry, shed their tears, for ones who have fallen
for insanity of humanity…even all created beings
are questioning your birth on this earth,

divine shaking her head, bemused, questioning
why granted free will…..and I say I don’t want it
I want to be slave, just make this monster go away

let us have our children back, let them play
erase our memories, wash that blood from the clay
remove this worst of the worst days
I beg, wish and pray and try to sleep my way
To abyss…